moving on..

tomorrow, i'm going to be meeting with kathy to discuss moving to new york and she wants to discuss how she's tried to get ahold of jem, i don't know what to tell her. i can't get ahold of him either and she tells me to tell him to email or call her as if we talk to each other other on a regular basis. i just don't want her to say, "well, you aren't going to know anyone else in that area of new york when you move there, so i don't think you're safe there." my friend andrew lives in that area of new york, although i don't think that i've really told him about my plans to move out there yet. i wanted to get my driver's license again before i moved out there because my communication skills aren't the greatest for when it would come to transportation, but i think that i'll have to just bite my tongue for a little while until i get shit settled there. i just don't want to continue paying for therapy and living in a place where i'm absolutely NOT happy at all.. i'm NOT made of money and i never really wanted to live here in the first place and there's nothing for me to do here, it seems like there's more oppportunities in new york.. although, i may need to take some billing and coding classes because i don't think that i remember and/or i don't think the information management classes that i took will count for anything- especially, since when i was taking them at rasmussen- my tutor basically did all my work for me and he didn't really bother explaining things. he just assumed that just because i understood one thing of the class, i understood the whole class and he could just do my work for me and not explain anything.. the stupid boner.